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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

caught in a thunderstorm

thunderstorms. in a more precise term that is understood and recognized by the public and is applied with the basic concepts of allegory and symbolism, problems.

i hate the rain... (let me make it clear) only when it pours down (straight) on me.

if i were to rate this "typhoonic" day, it would garner perhaps a 6. why?! you see........

first. due to the heavy rains, the day began with not a single trace of sunshine which often boost my energy for another day. althroughout the day, i felt depressed and gloomy and lazy as well... i even made a foolish mistake by smacking my seatmate at his back so hard that the "thud" thudded so, so loudly that it was heard by everyone in the room. i don't know what has taken over in my mind that caused me to resort to such act. i just felt so, so gigil na gigil with my seatmate that's why i smacked him hard, very hard. it was so painful.

second. the college orientation was definitely a bore. yeah, i learned alot from it. actually, i even realized that maybe i'll learn to love nursing after all. maybe as i take this course i'll learn to see that sweetness that is concealed within. and at first, i really enjoyed the orientation especially if we are seated near the ever and certified wafu--*ar***!!! (who's so corny that his signature was something found in "shoemart" and that his joke was what color should socks be worn..duh!) :p but later on, everything seemed to be a lecture from ~~hell~~ (maybe i was a little carried away) not-on-this-world land which seems to have gone eternity but sums up to nothing, as in nothing at all! the lecturer who maybe is one of the incompetent teachers...oops! mean girl on the loose!...even insisted on asking for our questions and even fooled around with the jerks who kept on asking questions irrelevant to the topic. oh please! you deserve each other! proceed to "nothing..chruva" land! :p worst is, we wasted another additional hour of chatting with my peeps just for their foolishness!

third. it seemed like a second version of what i felt last friday.. only that i am with some of my peeps this time. i wanna throw up. not because i'm pregnant or soemthing but due to the cheesiness of "some" girls' testi's for him! yuck! again, they, all of them (except me), are a match made in...hell.

fourth. it was due to the rain, again. jo and i were stranded in the lobby since no tryc is willing to take us home. perhaps, some would be willing to take me home since i would pay 15 pesos just for him to give me a lift upto our house just across the street but of course, i would not leave joanne alone. we waited. i got impatient. when we went to the near shed, wishing that somehow a tryc would take pity on us and give us a lift, but unforutnately, this stupid girl with matching dickies shoes with her son which are so cute (but then i hate the girl because she's so stupid) suddenly closed her umbrella just right infront of me, straight in my face, and bombarded me with drops and drops of acidic rainwater as if i am a filthy dog which she gave an instant bath! gosh! thanks! (*sarcasm here!)

but everything changed. at least, the thunderstorm postponed the classes tomorrow! i guess it's nice to experience a storm after all! :p

in the smallest possible size i could write on. lovelife update: i think i am beginning to get over him. at least, i accepted to myself that the impossible can never come true no matter how you believe in it... especially if you know that he has "other things" going on for him. and just recently i realized, everytime i look or wish for him to be where i am, he doesn't turn up but if not, he always comes around. oh well... i guess i just have to be accustomed to not wishing for him anymore... :P actually, i am alot happier right now. now that i am starting to free myself from the thoughts of him.

posted by anthonette || 10:41 PM