Tuesday, December 23, 2008
i like you NAMAN.
kung may bullet na nakakarating ng rizal, siguro patay ka na. ano pa ba ang gusto mo? gusto ko man maging friendly ikaw etong makapal ang mukha to push me away. okay fine ugali mo na ata yan e. nag-hi lang ako for goodness' sake. hindi ko sinabing i want you back..
galit ako sayo.
galit na galit.
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Friendster horoscope:
Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
The Bottom Line
You will be feeling fiery and a bit combative today -- but you will be loving it!
In Detail
You will be feeling fiery and a little bit combative today -- at least when you are dealing with people who are just not getting with the program. You have absolutely no patience for people who aren't willing to listen or work in groups, so it's not the best day for team-based activities. You'll be much happier if you can go it alone and have more flexibility to do what you want to do when you want to do it. Romance-wise, if you are single, you will be loving it!
ahhh i see. *winks*
posted by anthonette || 7:47 PM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
eating my heart out
i feel like edgar allan poe. writing while intoxicated.
and it made me think of the beauty of leaving.
people cry because you leave them. and you cry because youleave people behind.
as for me, leaving is beautiful
coz when you leave you get to see the people who would want you to stay. and best of all, when you leave you start thinking to yourself that you'd get to leave this place behind, you'd have the privilege of leaving everything, leaving the pain, the regret, the sorrow and disappointment.
i left you because i regretted everything.
but i left you scarred.
i hoped i never went to you in the first place.
then maybe there's no scar left behind.
posted by anthonette || 9:32 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
feat. quote of the week
launching ng quote of the week ko. dapat nasa school na ako to submit pi. kaso eto tamad mode. hehe
posted by anthonette || 6:38 AM
Monday, December 15, 2008
wishlist. wishlist. wishlist.
thanks for viewing. kasi at least it's either you're interested (dahil baka nasa wishlist mo din yun) or talagang you'll give me one! waheeeeee :D
i hope you're getting my hint haha. kiddin^^ wala lang alam ko masaya mag isip na may magbibigay sayo.
naisip ko tuloy in one discussion with bff's. buti pa si myra may nagbibigay ng shoes.. kaming mga single, eherm.... but kontra si mocha, kasi siyanga naman anjan si mama :D
kaya major parinig sa mga mama namin. hehehe^^
so aside from the three major necessities: bahay, lupa, kotse, pagkain. here's the list: (not in order)
1. psp. pink, silver or light blue. slim. :)
wala na kasi ang mahal na mahal kong psp. :( napalitan naman ng ipod kaya lang ciempre mas masaya pa din na wag makinig sa lec while playing. but! perks of ipod di masyadong halata.
2. book of pride and prejudice. hard bound.
i read it na over and over (paperback copy) and over and over i fell in love with mr. darcy. hehe i just wanted to savor every moment kaya i want a hard bound one. it's really hard to find one nga e.
3. keds shoes. closed flats.
love. love. love. girly but not too girly. gets? :)
4. cd: chris brown. lifehouse. onerepublic. ne-yo. justin timberlake. thor.
mostly mainstream. pero okay lang! thor's hindi nga lang ganon kafamous. opm un. r&b. pero world class talent talaga. wish he could've been given a super big break kasi when i checked online he has so many fans na talaga. he's not good looking but his voice can melt yyyyoooouuu. :D
5. dress. mini-dress. :)
honestly, madami na ako and hindi ko sila masuot sa school. kaya lang masaya kasi na pag-open mo ng closet mo--wooow panay dress. kahit deep inside tomboy ako. hehehe
and! mapresko kasi e. *winks*
6. laptop bag. pink but not too malandi. :p
pink vaio goes with pink bag. kawawa naman laptop namin. nasa bahay lang lagi. di na naarawan.
7. white pearl earrings. second to the pinakamalaki.
for one thing, it's suwerte daw when someone gives it to you. funny nga my sister and i thought of exchanging pero ciempre connivance na un. kaso sabi ni mama di daw counted yun. so i whispered to myself while ate's around (na malakas pa sa whisper) "ai bibigyan ko siguro si ate madie ng pearls. sana bigyan nya din ako."
kaso baka karmaic un. naku mahirap na.^^
8. bikini.
give me one. ill wear it for you. hahahahah joke^^
9. plaid na polo. normal sleeves lang.
plaid is love. wala lang ang ganda parang promdi pero hindi type. gets? :)
10. l'oreal elseve hair treatment set.
meron na akong shampoo at conditioner. kaso ang mahal mahal. nakakaasar. hehe pag nga ginagamit ko mine-measure ko pa ng teaspoon. hehehe major kuripot!
11. dog cage.
pag naiinis ako ikukulong ko si peanut dito.
ooops. hehehe papakainin ko naman e. di ko naman papaluin, tatadyakan, sisipain, sasampalin, naku yang asong yan ang baho baho magwiwi, nakakaasar minsan, ang sarap paliparin from 3rd floor.....
hindi ko talaga sasaktan. PROMISE.
12. taga-gawa ng pi 100 short story
para matapos na. kasi kanina pa ako e. and until now di pa ako tapos.
13. alarm clock na nag-aalarm ng bonggang bongga.
problem ko na yun. im always late. di kasi ako magising-gising. and im kinda insomiac na. i sleep at 3am kasi wala lang i can't sleep earlier and then it becomes so friggin difficult for me to wake up at 6am. to get ready for class. asar.
lagi tuloy ako pinaparinggan ni hello kitty. or minsan (di pala minsan) nagcacab na lang ako to get in time. e hello, mahal na kaya. argh argh argh.
14. one meal. one sitting. na bk whopper (hindi junior) large fries. large sprite with sundae. at world chicken: fettucine alfredo, potato salad or macaroni salad and chicken dressed with corn and mushroom (wait basta yung white)
kaya ako tumataba e.
15. spa and massage.
naman kasi. nakakapagod ang buhay.
16. 20-30k.
tapos magseset ako ng children's party with ronald mcdonald sa ward nina joanna sa pgh. :)
17. another day with him.
tangina ang corny ko.
18. 50k.
magpapareserve ako ng vip area sa emba, phi, jaipur, or magchcheck-in sa tagaytay. at magiinuman kami ng friends! :)
19. one night inuman.
with him para safe. pero sana with friends din. at sana malasing kami na maddrop dead tulog na lang kami. para no more vomitting! hehe
c'mon naman it's christmas. masarap naman mag-inom pag malamig. di naman meaning nun alcoholic na e.
we're after the bonding naman e. not the beer or gin or alcohol for real.
diba? may tama naman ako diba?
20. org chem reviewer and better tutor.
ayaw kasi niya magtutor e. ang corny. gusto ko ng tutor. naggets ko naman. kinakabahan lang ako. i just want to make sure that ill pass.
i could've said calculator na magandang maganda. kaso he gave me one na. hehehe^^
21. mountain bike and a teacher.
i never gave up on hoping that ill ride a bike someday. ride and drive it ha.
22. sasakyan na madaling tupiin.
sana talaga meron nito para pag nagpunta ng school madali magpark.
23. closet na nageemit ng kahit anong damit.
parang may nasohypophyseal sensor siya to detect my mood and then ieemit niya ung complete outfit na bagay for me for that day. para naman mabilis na ako magbihis.
****wait, i think nagiging idealistic na ako. okay FOCUS. NHET.********
24. 500 ml (?) body shop na strawberry flavored cologne.
kasi favorite smell nya un sakin. haha yuck nhet so corny.
25. yc pizza at invitation to go to his place. xmas party kasi ng housemates nya.
wala lang. gusto ko lang mainvite ulit. :( ewan ko ba feelingera kasi ako. gusto ko fc ako. crap naman nhet don't expect.
hehehehe OKAY. nega vibes out!
since xmas is on the 25th of the month. these are just 25.
though hindi kayo makacomply sa wishlist ko, okay lang. im a happy person naman.
i find happiness with the simplest and sincere-est things :)
gifts are not necessary talaga (lalo na pag hindi din naman kita bibigyan hehe joke).
kasi when im with you, im happy. (this goes for everyone ha. :p)
merry christmas to us all :D
posted by anthonette || 4:09 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
is there?
there are songs i just don't want to believe in.
Is">http://www.imeem.com/people/znikGP/music/--H4S4oM/u_turn_is_there_something/">Is There Something - U Turn
posted by anthonette || 7:00 PM
Monday, December 08, 2008
a bowl of light
it's a half moon tonight.
you have always been beautiful in my eyes, except tonight. it somehow saddened me that tonight, you seemed so real and yet i have never seen you like this before. i was fond when you were shining completely, with glee and with dominance over the dark sky of the night but tonight, tonight is a totally different story.
why did you let yourself be conquered by darkness? why does your face conjure two faces--the beautiful and the ugly?
you are weak. i believed you during the days when you shone bright among us. you were complete, endless, sensational, as if there is no one that could beat you in the darkness. your charm has just put everything else aside. you were the only--heavenly.
but tonight, darkness slowly creeps on you, eats you piece-by-piece, half-by-half. is this what you are really like when most of us are asleep? why are you dented? why are you diminishing? why are you losing light?
you are pretentious. liar. a cheat. if you think you can forever pretend you were complete, think again. i saw you. and you were as ugly as they are. you were so proud of yourself then, when everyone else adores your light. but when they have fallen into slumber, you uncover yourself, you are just becoming as dark as they are.
earlier tonight, i admired you but right now, you were just like them.
and you failed me.
posted by anthonette || 8:45 PM
Friday, December 05, 2008
breaking off the calluses
we all deserve something better.
because all of us are just struggling, searching for that certain reason that will make us stay, that will make us stop, that will make us--completely satisfied.
it is hard. hard to move on from bad habits. but who needs them if our self worth is compromised?
there are things we need and things we thought we need. and the more we set our minds that it is the bad habit that we need, that we have to pursue it with the hope that it'll turn into something better, the more we are just left, with corroded thoughts, wrong judgment, grief.
and so a popular adage agrees, "if the beginning is bad, might as well, do not lead it to the ending."
we deserve only the best because we have put our best efforts on it.
the challenge left to us, is to keep that 'something better' and shoot for the best :D
when a door closes, windows open.
my door has not really closed yet but it's just satisfying to breathe in fresh air, to bathe in warm sunlight and to view the world from my consoling window seat. :)
posted by anthonette || 9:34 PM