Saturday, January 31, 2009
dude. i understand. but please. let me rant.
NO.
they say to say no is the hardest thing to do. and if by any chance one manages to, well congrats. you are one of the privileged to have the greatest willpower.
we say no for good reasons, for our betterment and for our self fulfillment. but sometimes, it is just fucking irritating when you are told no when you were told yes weeks ago.
look.i understand. promise. i am in the same position as yours. but please understand if i just want to rant. im a person trapped in this system--my body and if i dont let the inconsistencies and frustrations and grievances out, i will burst.
and my god, i can think of more situations where my body would be so useful than just let it explode like that.
the thing is, only few are privileged to have that alchemy night. for free. with free transpo, free drinks (most likely kasi someone pledged to sponsor) and free entrance and best of all, free boarding and lodging and breakfast and lunch (prolly) in our house in the morning. all you have to do is dress up and go. ta-da! you are now in tra-la-la land :D
and i know that you have tons to do. tons to think of. tons to contemplate on. but i reserved you two weeks ago. i begged for your time. asked you to call it off and spend time with me, to alchemy and dance the night away. but best of all, experience a surprise i prepared that will turn every person in alchemy into putty with envy.
unfortunately, the "babawi thing" is not really a good wager for the inis i am totally feeling right now. (damn it kung sa embassy pa pala ako nagpareserve edi napahiya lang ako)
look. i understand i just feel so bad and frustrated that all i did and all i planned for two weeks ago was well.. turned into pop! air.
tapos thing is, di ko na nagawa ung surprise.
i mean i can't go and party kung wala naman talaga ung reason nun for the party diba?
hayy sayang naman talaga. ciempre nahihiya din ako for the people i bothered just to help me with the surprise.
too bad na lang nhet.
sorry guys if you are to read this. i mean i understood you naman kaya i didn't text na lang. i just want to let my frustrations out.
siguro mejo pass na muna ako sa paginvite sa inyo. matatagalan na rin lang siguro.
posted by anthonette || 6:01 PM
dude. i understand. but please. let me rant.
NO.
they say to say no is the hardest thing to do. and if by any chance one manages to, well congrats. you are one of the privileged to have the greatest willpower.
we say no for good reasons, for our betterment and for our self fulfillment. but sometimes, it is just fucking irritating when you are told no when you were told yes weeks ago.
look.i understand. promise. i am in the same position as yours. but please understand if i just want to rant. im a person trapped in this system--my body and if i dont let the inconsistencies and frustrations and grievances out, i will burst.
and my god, i can think of more situations where my body would be so useful than just let it explode like that.
the thing is, only few are privileged to have that alchemy night. for free. with free transpo, free drinks (most likely kasi someone pledged to sponsor) and free entrance and best of all, free boarding and lodging and breakfast and lunch (prolly) in our house in the morning. all you have to do is dress up and go. ta-da! you are now in tra-la-la land :D
and i know that you have tons to do. tons to think of. tons to contemplate on. but i reserved you two weeks ago. i begged for your time. asked you to call it off and spend time with me, to alchemy and dance the night away. but best of all, experience a surprise i prepared that will turn every person in alchemy into putty with envy.
unfortunately, the "babawi thing" is not really a good wager for the inis i am totally feeling right now. (damn it kung sa embassy pa pala ako nagpareserve edi napahiya lang ako)
look. i understand i just feel so bad and frustrated that all i did and all i planned for two weeks ago was well.. turned into pop! air.
tapos thing is, di ko na nagawa ung surprise.
i mean i can't go and party kung wala naman talaga ung reason nun for the party diba?
hayy sayang naman talaga. ciempre nahihiya din ako for the people i bothered just to help me with the surprise.
too bad na lang nhet.
sorry guys if you are to read this. i mean i understood you naman kaya i didn't text na lang. i just want to let my frustrations out.
siguro mejo pass na muna ako sa paginvite sa inyo. matatagalan na rin lang siguro.
posted by anthonette || 6:01 PM
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
freaky wednesdays
they say that the magic behind predictions and horoscopes lie on the power of the mind to put together all the pieces in a desperate attempt of creating a one whole puzzle...with sense.
but for some reason, my mind has just freakingly created one sensible puzzle in just a snap, aftr reading my Friendster horoscope.
could it be that the stars or numbers or some cosmic force really know the state im in or was it just coincidental?
and that my mind is playing tricks on me again?
Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)[?]
The Bottom Line
Where you are going with someone isn't clear, but it's clear you are going together.
In Detail
Your professional life is getting lighter and brighter, but you can expect things to get hot and heavy in your personal life! This is something you have been waiting for, and you are more than ready to take advantage of it. Call up your sweetie or your crush and plan something social with them as soon as possible. They are in this phase too, and when the two of you get together the energy will be palpable. Where you are going may not be clear, but it's clear you are going there together.
Reference: http://www.friendster.com/horoscope.php?hid=Leo
posted by anthonette || 3:18 AM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
laugh. but seriously i have ISSUES
i want to pretend that i am still alright, that i can survive this. i have had four almost ten formative years in the past, four more would make little difference. i want to believe that i can prove i deserve to be here, that i can finish and make my dreams come true, wihtout losing myself in disappointment with all the failures i have been making.
i want to believe in myself but reality is, i cannot get everything that i want.
i feel tired. some would say im being a fool, to grade-conscious. but isn't that the reason why i'm even studying? to worry about my grade. to worry about my future.
why does it feel that though i want to persevere, to be the best that i can be, i cannot avoid but do the wrong things. and though i try to tell myself, everything is just a phase, why does it seem that everything i do is wrong.
do i just have bad fate or im not just meant to be here?
i want to believe in myself. i want to persevere to survive this. i want to hold on. to never give up.
but why recent events just make me think that it's not meant for me after all?
posted by anthonette || 5:21 PM
Monday, January 05, 2009
"what did six tell ten?" -"seven ate nine"
it had been 2009 years since the birth of the earth. but would 2009 be any different?
better yet, would '09 be as lucky as it is?
and as '08 is left behind, it pays to remind us of the most memorable moments '08 has brought us.
of course, in a nine's perspective. *winks*
9 quotes that remind me of '08:
1. kaya naman niya magustuhan si *toot* e pero hindi lang instant tulad nung feelings nya for the other guy
ung instant feeling.
minsan lang yun.
2. Gwa m?
ignoring you. pwede na ba yun?
fyi, nag-loloyal-loyalan na ako.
why dont you try that for a change?
feeling-erong bastard.
hehehehehe :D
3. e kaya pala madaming rebelde sa inyo e.
tama. kasi bulok na gobyerno ang nagpapatakbo samin. kaya ayon bulok din ang sistema.
kaya dear raul gonzales, if you said up is breeding ground for rebels, baka dahil nasa posisyon ka kaya ganon.
4. what do you want for dinner?
ikaw--
err, wait tanong ba yon o sagot?
hehehe
nuff said.
5. wow tita ang galing naman kambal mga anak mo!
nako hindi, nagpalit lang sila ng sinuot kahapon. di kasi sila naligo.
e nasa hospital naman kami non e! tska maaga pa kaya un. hmp
(uuuuyyyy defensive :p)
6. (galit and suspicious) sino yun ha? ha anthonette?
duh. ma. wala. ano ka ba. friendly lang talaga ako masama ba?
ma, pagalitan mo nga. inuunahan pa ako e. turuan mo rumespeto
sino ba nga kasi yon?
wala nga duh. ano ba. tigilan nyo nga ako.
hehehe wala lang. ang puti! ang pogi! at ang ganda ng kuko sa paa. hayyy yummy!
MMMMMAAAAAA! yuck. tigilan mo nga yan.
nako ma ha umuwi ka na ng lipa kung magmumulandi ka lang naman dito! (galit)
7. ah ok po. any additional orders po?
ai oo! one creme bulee please.
uhm okay ma'am one cramble egg coming up!
sa moa yan sa moa.
8. isuot mo jersey mo ha.
huh? bakit?
para i can get your number.
ah number ba gusto mo? 666. ano gusto mo ba bilangin ko na din ang araw mo sa mundo?
9. I LOVE YOU.
I love you too, anak.
ikaw kasi e wala ka na sa bahay, ayan nagkasakit tuloy ako.
:-x
posted by anthonette || 3:48 PM