Saturday, December 02, 2006
paying little visits
their visit was entirely a
big deal. (for them)
maybe i just wanna let it all out. just recently, my wonderful
insans came home for xmas from their stay in the states. they really missed home and hanging out with them is definitely something to look forward to, for me. they were like my sisters too and i really missed them.
but the story's not about them.
it's all about my tita's and tito's who are so eager to take advantage of the situation, to do everything that would make them "in good terms" with my
tito-ninong from the states. (perhaps, it's because he's a quite weak already that their expecting some inheritance or something) they kept on orbiting around my tito as if they are his ever willing servants ready to be summoned for his every comand. little did my tito know that they are like flytraps, so so sticky to "the-big-catch", just to have something in return.. to ask money as debt that'll later on be converted to the "tiway"
(t.y.-thank you) currency.
what make me more furious is the past anger i felt for them. my sisters and I have been fighting for respect due to my father. perhaps, he may have done something wrong to tak the glory out of him but after all, he is still the elder. and no matter how everything changes, one thing is true: he is worthy of respect perhaps maybe not as an elder but still as a person.
what we kept on receiving are insults. and i admit that sometimes i even join in their most cruel jokes to make up for the hurt i feel. but still, if they claim they are refined and civilized people with a broad understanding of all those misunderstood, they would understand my father. he is still my father after all. and i couldn't let this injustice happen to him. he has suffered that much to let himself go astray. and now that he struggles to get back on track, i wouldn't let any person to hinder his way. and if they bring him down, i would carry him up.
we, his family..his true family, will.
even if it means the world against us.
in fairness to my other titas, i am glad that they, the rational and intellectual, still exist in the family. at least, their minds have not yet been clouded my conceitedness. at least, they do not stick to "the-big-catch" just for the sake of money but because they knew, it is their duty. at least, they appreciate our good fortune and does not make monsters out of us through pathetic rumors.
and to my everdearest tita, who's hobby is to borrow money and backstab the person she borrowed from, thank you. at least, you have been the example of the nightmare i don't want to have. at least, you have taught me not to be like you. and never will i wish to be like you. i may have been cruel but i really don't care. and the next time i here you lecturing my mother about the "false" upbringing you claim she has done to us, i'll slap it all in your face.
look at the mirror.to my friends who have done nothing but to console me from the "issues" that have been affecting me so much... this is one of them.
the war is just about to begin.
posted by anthonette || 8:14 PM
the palace
78th street. chocolate wheatfields.
plotted at 1024 x 768 total area.
dear guest...
you are trapped in my own reverie.
the only way out is to walk through my life.
it is your fate.
and if you wish for liberty
i ask only for your tooth
that it may fulfill my dream
of being your fairy...
but if not,
you'll forever live in my illusion.
may i remind you, you are seeing through my mind.
whether you do good or bad,
i will always know...
i'd be glad to hear from you...
but make sure it's worthwhile......
enjoy your stay.
and i wish your dreams become a reality...
and your reality takes part in my dream...
my friend.
the tooth fairy
a teenager.
not only likes chocolates but especially, coffee.
has that undeniably "chocolate features"..the perfect chocolate proprietor.
loves accounting and bookkeeping except her stupid "ceiling-gazer" professor.
cannot survive without television.
cannot survive without food.
spends 500000 every 5 years for food and clothing.
certified food-a-holic.
loves exotic food, animals except...people.
despises math. and physics!
dreams to live in South Korea.
opposes North Korean nuclear testing forces.
a cool, calm and collected oppositionist.
struck by hyperactivism whenever "prince charming/s" is/are around.
object of ridicule.
with ferocious booming voice.
100 % female.
with a hundred percent set of teeth.
hates braces.
and guys who wear them.
and guys with glasses.
loves to write.
if there is pen and paper.
near-sighted.
wears a contact lens.
with newly-bought travel pack case from *japan home.
sleeps late.
hates texting.
loves chatting.
hates swallowing-self-pity-people.
hates insecured backstabbers with inferiority complex syndromes.
koreannovela addict.
juday-piolo love team fanatic.
friendly and approachable.
but..
pulaera. suplada. matapang.
"every guys pal, no guys passion."
with exception to my "adiktus" bestfriend, domingo..
has weird dreams once in a while.
has great big dreams.
doesn't dream at all when exhausted.
hopeless romantic.
narcissist.
believes on fate. relies on faith.
supports the bright and sunny movement.
opened a cupboard.
later on, closed it.
blogger profile here.
the little dreams
an Ipod.
a cellphone with CAMERA.
a boracay mansion.
a prince charming just like Xin.
a jaguar or ferrari, owkei na.
to go to S.Korea.
pass UPCAT and ACET.
be an Editor-in-Chief.
write an editorial.
update my blog every now and then.
eat a BIG MAC now!
establish a coffee shop.
have my own pictorial.
contribute to YoungBlood.
act on a play.
sleep 10 hrs. a day for a whole month.
think of any possible way to push through my xmas shopping!
"older posts" to appear in my tagboard.
find my perfect wedding dress.
but first, my prom dress.
overcome my fear of cockroaches and spiders.
join GABRIELA.
go back home, at Bicol.
eat ice cream for a whole day.
shop-till-i-drop.
for Princess hours to be a hit on Phil teevee!
somebody special and true.
someone who'll tell me:
"stay beside me. without you, everything will be empty."
stop being cheesy, mushy and emo.
overcome the fear for the future.
know my real dream.
find the one.
the parliament
on leaves and leaving.
my__friendster.
my__friendster.blog.
my__multiply.
princess hours!!!__friendster.
mia.
monica.
arjae.
rizelle.
jess.
berna.
joanna.
joanne.
kris.
renz.
joyce.
april.
kit.
naeces.
jenn.
ka silyas.
the kingdom
sibs.barkada.
the cupboard
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