beyond the candy castles

Sunday, January 21, 2007

sense and sensitivity


there are certain things which you'd want to be left unspoken of. while others would be something you'd like someone to hear out. whether you try to hide it or burst it out, your inner you just tells you what you've got to do. and the response has an effect on your body language, which the chosen would understand and the naive will be left nothing but naive.

i tried to hide, to conceal, to camouflage and to act innocent. but every single effort was all useless. the effort was not that obvious yet, yet nothing really happened. i was still stuck in that stinking mood.

i tried to reflect on myself. what would this dull and lifeless feeling bring me? why would i dare to swallow all the pain and be as distant as possible to my friends, to my family, to all those who cared about me? it's pointless. in the first place, i was never that lonely person.

it was not that solitude and peace i was looking for that i found. it was loneliness, pain and isolation. who would want to live in such a hell?

therefore, the only way i'd feel alot better would be to go back who i really am, to be comfortable of everything that goes, to ignore the pressure, to avoid worrying. the greatest strategy of facing any problem is to face it with the end in mind. in this case, it is always victory.


posted by anthonette || 3:25 PM