Wednesday, January 30, 2008
i'm supposed to wake up 2 hours from the time i posted this
let me just say a "few" hate me's for this day:
i hate myself because...
**i can't seem to retain the things i have been studying. i need FOCUS but it's gone missing. grr. i would read something then it turns out after a few minutes that i don't actually remember anything from it!
**i can't sleep. i just can't. it's as if i have an automatic clock in my head which rings an alarm for sleep at 12 noon and if i missed it, it will re-alarm at 3am. grr. which is why i end up dozing off in my classes.
**i missed a lot of cya sessions. i have been feeling all guilty and sad lately because i compromised my commitment for my desperation to work for a better grade. (only to find out that the exam would be postponed to next week) i know sorry's would be nothing compared to what i have done but i just don't know wht more can i say to show how sorry i am. i know that my own prayer time is not enough, i mean, it'd still be better to get together with the group which helped me nurture it but i ..well, i am just sorry. :(
**my things are sooooo messsy! i took them out, took them in, ran to and fro fixing my things and everytime i managed organizing them, the day after, they're all over the house, again!
**i can't stop watching palos. i know it maybe baduy to the majority. plus, the "agent missions" are so cheaply conceptualized. but i just can't stop watching it. (bec of jake! grr.) and jake reminds me of......nevermind. anywaaayyy, it takes up most of my precious time (for studying again grr.) so i should just stop.
**i am not good at chem! i thought i was a little higher than average when i was in highschool. but right now, i just cna't seem to catch up. waaaa! i don't know what to do.
**i'm still having doubts about my course, seriously. i even asked myself if this is what i really wanted for the rest of my life. and i really don't think it's a good sign. (so i should just obliterate that feeling as soon as i can.)
**i always as in ALWAYS cram! there was one night when i just ended up crying while working on our lab report because i never thought i would finish it. i don't want to cram anymore. but it seems that i am more productive when i cram. but i can't cram. it's just like a suicidal attempt.
**i recently have abdominal cramps.(and take note, i'm done with my period already) i tell you, it doesn't feel any good. it's just like having amigraine, only it's your abdominal part of the body that's bellowing for help.
**i have to go. i want to write more. but i think i need to sleep.
so bye bye!
and i hope all this hate will go away! :D
posted by anthonette || 10:24 PM
the palace
78th street. chocolate wheatfields.
plotted at 1024 x 768 total area.
dear guest...
you are trapped in my own reverie.
the only way out is to walk through my life.
it is your fate.
and if you wish for liberty
i ask only for your tooth
that it may fulfill my dream
of being your fairy...
but if not,
you'll forever live in my illusion.
may i remind you, you are seeing through my mind.
whether you do good or bad,
i will always know...
i'd be glad to hear from you...
but make sure it's worthwhile......
enjoy your stay.
and i wish your dreams become a reality...
and your reality takes part in my dream...
my friend.
the tooth fairy
a teenager.
not only likes chocolates but especially, coffee.
has that undeniably "chocolate features"..the perfect chocolate proprietor.
loves accounting and bookkeeping except her stupid "ceiling-gazer" professor.
cannot survive without television.
cannot survive without food.
spends 500000 every 5 years for food and clothing.
certified food-a-holic.
loves exotic food, animals except...people.
despises math. and physics!
dreams to live in South Korea.
opposes North Korean nuclear testing forces.
a cool, calm and collected oppositionist.
struck by hyperactivism whenever "prince charming/s" is/are around.
object of ridicule.
with ferocious booming voice.
100 % female.
with a hundred percent set of teeth.
hates braces.
and guys who wear them.
and guys with glasses.
loves to write.
if there is pen and paper.
near-sighted.
wears a contact lens.
with newly-bought travel pack case from *japan home.
sleeps late.
hates texting.
loves chatting.
hates swallowing-self-pity-people.
hates insecured backstabbers with inferiority complex syndromes.
koreannovela addict.
juday-piolo love team fanatic.
friendly and approachable.
but..
pulaera. suplada. matapang.
"every guys pal, no guys passion."
with exception to my "adiktus" bestfriend, domingo..
has weird dreams once in a while.
has great big dreams.
doesn't dream at all when exhausted.
hopeless romantic.
narcissist.
believes on fate. relies on faith.
supports the bright and sunny movement.
opened a cupboard.
later on, closed it.
blogger profile here.
the little dreams
an Ipod.
a cellphone with CAMERA.
a boracay mansion.
a prince charming just like Xin.
a jaguar or ferrari, owkei na.
to go to S.Korea.
pass UPCAT and ACET.
be an Editor-in-Chief.
write an editorial.
update my blog every now and then.
eat a BIG MAC now!
establish a coffee shop.
have my own pictorial.
contribute to YoungBlood.
act on a play.
sleep 10 hrs. a day for a whole month.
think of any possible way to push through my xmas shopping!
"older posts" to appear in my tagboard.
find my perfect wedding dress.
but first, my prom dress.
overcome my fear of cockroaches and spiders.
join GABRIELA.
go back home, at Bicol.
eat ice cream for a whole day.
shop-till-i-drop.
for Princess hours to be a hit on Phil teevee!
somebody special and true.
someone who'll tell me:
"stay beside me. without you, everything will be empty."
stop being cheesy, mushy and emo.
overcome the fear for the future.
know my real dream.
find the one.
the parliament
on leaves and leaving.
my__friendster.
my__friendster.blog.
my__multiply.
princess hours!!!__friendster.
mia.
monica.
arjae.
rizelle.
jess.
berna.
joanna.
joanne.
kris.
renz.
joyce.
april.
kit.
naeces.
jenn.
ka silyas.
the kingdom
sibs.barkada.
the cupboard
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